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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
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2:57 AM
Just now, a guy in WLNY messaged me saying care to make friends as per normal. So after replying him something I just viewed his profile. A typical not bad looking guy..In the profile I saw a group photo of he and his friends under a blk at night. That photo contains a very familiar face.
The face of Jia Jun
The glance of the guy in the photo reminds me of him (though I'm not sure if its really him). He was a ex boyfriend of mine. We broke last november which was like a year ago. We aren't together for as long as you people thought I was to dwell so much in those time. I don't know why, maybe because he really did hurt me real deep that time.
I remember that paticular night...
Its late already and I got to get home asap. He didn't want to send me home as he's tired. I know he works and he is tired. We're both busy in the day and we could only see each other at night. At night, I got curfew. So, the time to see him wasn't long. I was missing him so much. My area has alot of foreign workers (banglahs), he don't care about my safety?
I know comparing is bad but I can't help to do so.
Why other guys can send their girlfriends home no matter what and he can't?
I don't know, before that our relationship was already on the rock. That night was the last straw. We quarelled and he unwillingly walked me home. Not a single word was said the whole journey. Not even a goodbye before the lift closes its door. Nothing.
I saw him sitting under my block, he looks depressed and angry. That look in his face, it really hurts me alot. Before he left, I saw him typing a message. I know it was for me. He sent it and left. I looked at him from my unit until I couldn't see him. Every step he took, the smaller he goes, all the way until he vanish down the corner of the block. I read the message after that, I broke down. He says I treat guys like fuck, I don't understand guys. Lets break up. My world came tumbling down. The tears falls as my heart break. He really hurts me deep. All that I did for him, all the love I gave him..
I guess because of the hurt he caused me, I remember him clearly
His eyes, his smile, his touch, his words, his love, his hurt.
