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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
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12:15 AM
Happy Valentine's Day to myself and everyone reading.
Lately, we've been quarelling. Its so bad that we even have the thought of breaking up (though we didn't say it out). At least, I know we can't bear to let each other go. (somethign to be glad about) I really don't wish to quarell with him. Yesterday he even said something that really hurts me deep. Anyway long story...don't wish to post it.He says talking to me is very stressful. And going out with me is SIAN!! He claims that he can't share anything with me as I'm always not understanding.
Somehow, I not sure. He would rather spend his time with his brothers than with me. =( He complained how his so called brothers didn't look him up at times, how one guy own video-ezy shop $300 (and still adding) under his name, etc. But still he still would rather spend his free time with them complaining than I'm making him stress and dampen his spirits. I felt so hurted!!! I've been crying silently in bed for the past few nights.
Yup, his brothers didn't look him up. BUT I DID! Yet that is the respone I get..too disheartening. Ever since after the funeral, he is acting weird. Putting all the blames on me.
-I Need Freedom! -I'M GOING NS SOON AND I WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY BROTHERS -WHEN I GO NS I'LL SPEND MORE TIME WITH YOU..I'm only in from 8am to 5pm mah. Can meet you up for dinner everyday. -You don't like this can anot? I'm very stress already you know. Stress about what I'm not very sure. My head is going to burst! Now I really hope that there is something to take me off the stress!!! Now I know why my friend die. I also want to plurge off the edge and thats it!!!!!
I was like what the fuck! You sure you are willing to meet me every single day like when we were first together?! What about your brothers, don't need to look for them and stay in contact?! I'm so very angry. He is such a liar...big fat liar!!! He used to say that he'll slowly leave his gang, All he need is just some time. But after the funeral, he told me that he'll never leave his gang! Even in the next life he'll also want to follow his that friend who died. Than ditch me aside and enjoy with his brothers. Fuck right! Liar!!! Than saying than I'm stressing him too much, he wants to commit suicide! DAMN!!
I've got so much more to say. But...its just another sad thing in my sad life.
