I'm useless, just useless to you. Because I land myself in ITE and jobless. I don't like doing house work, the reason I mention it so many times! Just you don't want to open up your ears and listen to me. Whatever shit I say is just nothing to you. Everytime I haven't finish talking to you about important things or me..you'll just cut me off half way. Sarcas is how you cut off our conversation. I'm so sick of this piece of shit. Sometimes all I need is you to listen to me, I tried talking to you. Its not as if I didn't talk to you.

Do you know I can't balance job and stuties?
Do you know I'm the chair-lady of Simei TKD?
Do you know I'm TKD brown belt already?
Do you know why I stayed at home during the holidays instead of going out?
Do you know that I feel very vindicated by you?
Do you know I tried to do so many things just to make you like me more?
Do you know I never wanted this to happen between you and me?
Do you know How I really feel?
Do you know me?


I'm just trying so hard to laugh...
Feeling like fuck since the beginning of this week. No pocket money, surviving on nothing, one full meal a day thats all the shit I got. I hate it. I'm not working..there is no other income already for me except for pocket money. I wanted to work, but you fucking people don't let me work what I like! Than I don't have money to eat..the basic need to daily life. I'm starving from the moment I woke up until dinner time. FUCK! Woke up every morning with gastric pain. I don't get gestrics last time..but since last year I'm starved so badly that I developed gastric pain easily! And I think my body is mul-functioning. I meanrly walked a short distance and I'm like panting, wobbly legs and heavy arms. I didn't tell my parents about this especially my mother (cause i don't think she'll listen and start talking before I'm done with my words). I could never get my message across to her. I hate this! She hate me!